Full Steam Ahead
Fearing a flea infestation, we purchased a steam cleaning machine in order to efficiently eradicate the problem. After tackling that task, I had a go at some others such as tile grouting, sink and bathtub. Not all was as miraculously clean like in the demo film that accompanied the machine but there is definite improvement. Perhaps one should not expect to eliminate in one fell swoop stuff that has built up over a period of time of 20 years. (20 years? It seems like only a short while ago we were visiting the stores, choosing the materials.)
Fasting from 7 to 7, I start to run out of steam around 5 but with careful gauging, I persevere towards the goal I have set for myself. At this 2/3 point of Ramadan, I often wonder why did I get myself into this. And yet, a few months before it starts, I am looking forward to it and when it is over, there is a feeling of accomplishment.
A person was discussing with me some ideas from a book she has been reading, notably the idea that in reality change is immediate and not gradual. I can see an element of that, a realization which starts the process, a decision like at a fork in the road, but I believe I will be walking the ascending goat paths for the rest of my life, powered by the energy created with the fire of the stick of Light that spoke in Arès and the Water of the Word.
“the Host and Shepherd is above me; He leads the sinners who begin their journey on the goat paths, He feeds them on the rocky ground, He washes their chafed feet.
He never forsakes a sinner in his penitence; all the sinners he fortifies during their ascent,
those who pray to Him in silence,
those who pray to Him shaking bells and candles,
those who pray to Him seven times a day,
those who do not pray to Him but who know Him,
those who count the sun(rise)s until His Day (comes)
and those who count the moons,
those who burn incense to Him and shout toward Him,
those whom the incense and shouts annoy,
those who see Him white and those who see Him black,
and the deniers of all of those,
the countless multitude whose names a flood of ink would not suffice to list, whose names the Father knows”
The Revelation of Arès 25/5-6